Sometimes I feel stupid about not being able to find a job. Yeah, I know we are in a recession, but I'm a nurse for goodness-sakes. Nurses aren't supposed to have this problem.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough to find a job, so people think that I'm slacking. That isn't true for the most part. I've been diligently searching for a job. For example, I contacted one hospital multipul times, and I didn't let up until they said WE DON'T WANT YOU. That's all I ever hear: We don't have a position open; We want someone with more experiance; We have a hiring freeze; We are cutting back; We are laying off people. WE DON'T NEED YOU.
Nobody does. Even with the least of all RN jobs, I am finding competition.
It doesn't help that all my peers are working at their big name hospitals. ChristianaCare, Yale, John Hopkins, etc.
Why me? Why could I only find one job in a lousy nursing home? PRN at that!? They cut all my shifts! ALL OF THEM!
I'm kinda confused. God wanted me to be a nurse. He got me through school, He got me through clinicals, and He got me through the Boards. Only to...what? Allow me to be unemployed for months on end?
It doesn't make sense. Not at all. So I'm confused.
I'm not angry...just a little frustrated I guess. But I feel better now that I got all that off my chest. I'm really anxious to know that my God has up His sleeve. I don't doubt Him or His plan. I don't question His Word or His promises. He is in control, and that is good enough for me. I am His vessel. May He do with me as He sees fit.
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