a few things

Oh man, what a week. Practically no time to sleep, let alone blog on this site. Clinicals at Wilmington hospital are harder than I had imagined. I think my clinical instructor thinks I have anxiety issues and learning issues and stuff. She even gave me extra assignments so I could try to stay on same page with the other students. I don't think she likes me very much. At least she hasn't been pushing me to get tested for ADD like one of my clinical instructors last semester. Another instructor last semester told me that I should take anti-anxiety medication. It just takes me a little longer to get used to things. That's all. I know I'm different. It's the way God made me.

The cardiac step-down unit is hard, but I am learning alot. I get exposed to a lot of things there. The nurse I had on Friday was very nice and approachable, so I went to her with my questions rather than my instructor. Both Thursday and Friday were very difficult, and I must say that I was playing with the idea of changing my major haha.
I know that the Lord puts us through tough times so that we can grow, and so we can learn to rely on Him for strength rather than ourselves.

I called the Boy up several times this week to cry and vent and spill out my frustrations. He's so great; he always listens and gives great Bible-based advice. I couldn't ask for a better ministry partner and friend. By God's grace and overflowing blessing, our relationship has simply flourished even more since we have stopped "dating" (if you can call it that). We have recieved multipul conformations that we are supposed to be working together in the ministry for the present time. Who knows what the future will bring? I'm not thinking about it.

Easter tomorrow. That means grandparents and less time for the homework I need so desperately to finish. I'm hoping to finish most of my stuff by Monday so that I have most of the day Tuesday to research my new client's meds, patho etc.

God is good. He has a plan. Nuff said.

my rant on the trial at hand

I really wish I could publish what I really want to say.
About the trial at hand.
You know who you are.
But I already wrote it all out then erased it.
I choose to hold back my words.
God has given me grace in that aspect.
Praise God.

house of jesus

Oh my goodness. As usual, Beth Yeshua was amazing last night. Rabbi Chernoff might have well just preached to me. His message was exactly the answer to some situations I am dealing with. Funny how that happens. Worship, of course, was absolutely amazing. And when I went up for prayer, I got a few words as well. It was great. THIS--Beth Yeshua I mean--is what it's all about: Amazing worship, solid scriptures, prayer and prophacy, and amazing well-grounded people. Praise the Lord.
SNA tonight. We'll see how it goes. I'll be playing the piano and singing, so I'm excited about that. And the Boy will be preaching, and of course that will be good. I don't know who all will show up though. We'll just have to wait and see. I'm not worried because God is working.

I really wish we could have a mini-Beth Yeshua on campus. How awesome would that be? One day. Praise God.

out of the closet....

I'm finally contributing my blog to the general public, because I've got nothing to hide. ("I'm coming out...I want the world to know...!") hehehe!

Some super amazing things have been happening to me lately. Since I have stepped down from SNA worship and persued the Woman's Ministry, God has just overwhelmed me to the point of overflowing with wonderful, precious girls! Praise the Lord! Even my co-worker, whom I've been praying so hard for, showed me a Christian book she was reading yesturday! Praise the Lord! And one of my friends, who is searching, came to Pastor Tom's Bible study the other night, and she loved it! And my good friend who just became a Christian in December wants to get baptized!! Yay! God has been moving in ways I could not even imagine! And I get emotional just thinking about all that God is doing on this campus!! He HAS been moving and He WILL continue to move powerfully. And me? I am just a broken, dirty clay jar, but somehow, for some reason, God is using me!

All I want to do is serve my God. All I want is to enjoy my Father for who He is and enjoy Him because of all the things He teaches me.

He is so good. SO, SO good.

Praise the Lord.
Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the harp and lyre,
Praise him with tambourine and ancing, praise him with the strings and flute,
Praise him with the clash of cymbals, praise him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord.
Psalm 150

strict obedience

What's done is done.