"I'm thinking about a career in medicine."

"The only medicine you need is fo' yo' head."~ BA to Murdock. (The A-team, s.1: ep.13)

Ok, so I have a credential now. Deborah Mitchell BSN. Scary isn't it? Not as scary as it will be when I get that coveted RN stapled onto the end of my name. I've got a few months to go and a couple million brain cells to fry before that one though.
Proceeding onto the next stage of my life is going well enough. Key word: enough. I haven't applied anywhere yet...for the sole reason that I suffer from an extremely contagious disease called procrastinitis, but I'm not too worried about this. The nursing home is allowing me a graduate nurse position--part time of course--and don't forget the 8 or so trips I'm going on this summer. Ok...more like 3 or 4. Still, my summer load is heavy and it has just begun.
I'm taking a course that will help me pass the boards...the first time. Yup, that's right. Standardized tests, they say, have patterns and methods. Well I am learning all the secrets to cracking those codes and therefore isolating the right answer. Never mind what I learned in the last four years....I just have to learn the methods of passing this exam. And becoming a RN (Real Nurse).
Then what?
I hate when people ask that question.
"Do you have any jobs lined up?"
"What are you going to do after you graduate?"
Or when they make statements like:
"You won't have any trouble finding a job."
Or:
"You're going to be making the big bucks."
(Ohhhhhh that one's the worse.)
Yes, yes, I know that I won't have trouble finding a job, I know there's a shortage, and I know that nurses get payed 50 million dollars an hour!! Ok, already!
No, I have no idea where I'm going to work; I haven't applied anywhere yet; and I have no idea what I want to do! NONE!! OK??
Huh. I just had to get that out of my system.
Sorry to anyone that reads this and asked me these kind of questions. That outburst was not geared towards you. I promise.
I'm just sort of frustrated with the 'not knowing what I'm going to do for the rest of my life' thing.
I'm trusting God. That's what I'm doing.
For my nursing ceremony, they wanted me to state my future plans. My future plans? I have none. God holds my future in His hands. I don't plan for anything. So I simply stated that I planned to pass the boards and get a good job. That's vague enough.

Praise God