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That battle between good and evil is quite evident. I hate Hasatan, and that stupid thing invented at the dawn of time called 'sin.' But that doesn't stop me from doing it.

It's like I try as I might to live for God, but then there are those little things that I discount. "Oh, that's not important." I say. Or I make excuses.

It's those little "unimporant" "white" sins that would eventually lead to my downfall.

The devil lies, telling me their ok. "At least you're not like all those other people." he says. "You've never been drunk. You've never had sex. You've never even touched anyone in an inappropriate way. You've never cursed. You've never murdered. You've never stolen anything. You've never dressed in a provocative manner. You've never had decietful motivations. You usually obey your parents...."

Essentially, I'm perfict...compared to the world of course. And that's what Hasatan is trying to emphasis in his lies.

But I'm not perfict. I do have my downfalls. I do have my bad days. I am human. My sins may look "white" or "harmless" or whatever, but they are still sins. Sin is sin. Whether it's adultery or pride, it's still all the same. I am a sinful piece of rubish in the eyes of my Father. Only His good grace has covered that ugliness. Only though Christ can the Holy Father look upon me and not be disgusted.

God has teaching me about judging others lately. I feel like I have been falling victim to that....the judging part I mean.

Dear God! It's so hard to be a born-again Christian in today's society! I see all that is going on around me. All that is evil and sinful. It kills me inside, but there also is a prang of pride. I am not like them. Those sinful, worldly people. I am not like them.

Dear God, what is this attitude! Was I not in the same boat as these people before I was saved by the Father's undeserved grace?? Am I not still a human that sins every day reguardless of the fact that Christ bled and died for me so that I might be set free from sin??

What is wrong with me? Why is my attitude not like that of my Savior? Why do I do what I don't want to do, and don't do what I do want to do?