miss scarlet in the study with the wrench

So yesturday i was at work, doing my second double (16 hr day). It was insane. I had one fall and a pt vomited, but that wasnt the worst. i was really sick with a head cold, conjestion and post nasal drip ew. And I used up an entire box of tissues (provided by the nursing home :)) Anyways, I did have a good moment. I had some free time in the morning after my first med pass before lunch (when does THAT happen??) and my aide was on break, so I was watching the floor. I was reading Psalm 78. It was so good. Then I was talking to a pt, and he said he was back-slidden. I was trying to encourage him in the Lord, and i was trying to witness to him. I had my Bible out ready to read the psalm. But then he got distracted (he has underlying dementia) and decided to comb his hair. Oh well... maybe next time. Then I left my Bible in the med cart and went home without it. The nurse texted me this morning and said, "Uh, I think you left your Bible in the med cart." I went to get it, then I got home and cleaned and we had thanxgiving dinner today instead of tomorrow cuz I have to work 3-11 at MC.

Ellllioooootttt.....

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I'm Elliot. He's my fav L&O character :)

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He seriously doesn't smile....ever.

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Apparently I'm Hotch....my friend Kristin called it, and I didn't believe her. I was thinking, "No way. Just no way." I mean, I admire the guy, and for some reason have a strange respect/fascination for him, but I mean seriously speaking, the guy doesn't smile. Ever. But for some reason, he's like my favorite character.

After watching the show, I do see the similarities between Hotch and myself....
I'm like him at work. I'm totally focused on what I'm doing, and purpose driven. I want to get the job done. I mean, for example, a couple weeks ago, my boss got fired right in front of me, and I didn't even notice cuz I was so focused on my work. Several times, other staff (including my boss) have stopped me and said, "smile, Deb, smile" cuz I'm so focused and overwhelmed by what I have to do, that forget to.

Anyone that knows me outside of work may not believe this, because when I'm not working, I'm pretty layed back. But during work, I'm DRIVEN. Dude, I could go an entire day without smiling if that day includes a couple falls, some episodes of vomiting and an admission. A couple weeks ago (maybe the same day my boss got fired), my other boss came to me and said, "Oh, by the way, you have three admissions today." Three? THREE!!?? I basically told her, "Please excuse me while I walk out of here and never come back."

Everything ended up working out in the end, even though I sent one patent to the hospital because he wasn't urinating into his Foley, and when i tried to straight cath him, all this blood and junk came out and was on the catheter. And he was in alot of pain. I was like, "Great. This is probably the worse day ever." This an example where I did not smile the entire day.

Ok, so those are some examples how I am like Hotch. And this is what I get for having a best friend who's obsessed with Criminal minds and is also a psych major.

Shamless

"Do not gloat over me, my enemy!
Though I have fallen, I will rise.
Though I sit in darkness,
the Lord will be my light.
Because I have sinned against him,
I will bear the Lord's wrath,
until he pleads my case
and establishes my right,
He will bring me out into the light,
I will see his righteousness."
-Micah 7:8-9

I sin. You sin. We all sin.

It's undeniable, inevitable, irrivocable and shameful.
We are pitiful, pathetic, poor and filthy in God's sight.

I think it's important to remember the ugliness and shamefulness of sin in order to appreciate and glorify God for His undeserved grace.

My shame became His shame.
His blood covered my sin.
I'm different now in His sight.
I have been set free.

killer bunnies

I'm in beautiful Colorado. Dang, every time I come out, I just want to move out here. I have no desire to go back to delaware. Especially since I'm going back to do 3 doubles in a row at the nursing home. boom, boom, boom. In the event that I survive that, I am then planning on going to Camp Cedarbrook in PA to be a camp nurse! Whoo! I am very excited about this.

Immediately following this camp experience comes my orientation for Manor Care, in which I think that they hired me as a PRN nurse. I am excited because this place looks like a hospital inside, even though it is your basic Rehab and LTC (Long Term Care) facility. This place offers more skilled care (in which I finally get to practice some skills!) as opposed to an intermediate facility (which Newark Manor is). Look out trachs, vents, wound vacs, and IVs....here I come! Am I scared? Yes. I can handle my own at Newark Manor only about 75% of the time, so Manor Care is a leap for me. But I know that God got me into this job, and He won't let me down now. Will is be hard? Yes, but not impossible.

So, back to Colorado. The other day, we (me, my mom, my bro + sis in law) went to Aspen to see an awesome orchestra at the music school. Then we went hiking at the Maroon Bells (not up them---this is very dangerous, usually resulting in serious injury or fatality). We saw the Bells, and let me tell you --- it was basically the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen!!!! You would not believe me unless you have seen it. Yes. Yes, I want to move out here. I say this every single time I visit. However, this is not the right time; this is quite clear to me. Today, mom and I went to the Springs and saw the garden of the gods (which obviously, one God created). It was breathtaking. What a testimony of God's creativity and goodness!

Awesomeness.

Not what I want

I feel like I'm supposed to be in Newark. I mean, I live here, my church is here, my work is here, and my college ministry is here. My entire network of living is in a 1 mile radius. I don't get out of Newark much. But...I feel like I'm supposed to be here. Still. After all these years.

I want to move to Lancaster, to be close to my g'rents, and to live with my aunt.

I want to move to Colorado, to be near my bro and sis. It would be cool to live in the mountains.

I want to move to Central or South America, and practice nursing in poverished Hispanic areas...like the ones that broke my heart in Ecuador.

I want to move to Africa...a dream I've had for quite sometime....and teach preventive care and healthy habits, and take care of little kids with AIDs and young women who have nowhere else to turn.

I want to move up north, or out west, or maybe even down south.

But most of all, I want to bring God the most glory possible, and in my heart, I feel like that is staying right here in Newark...for a little while at least. Bringing God glory is more important than what I want.